Mens sana in corpore sano, A sound mind, in a healthy body!

Now 35 years after I have left my old college...I am finally appreciating the school motto to it's fullest...'Mens sana in corpore sano'...A sound mind, in a healthy body'
I had to reflect, inwards... on my walk this morning.
Put things into perspective.
Last year after my separation...I made a snap decision...and was perplexed by it at first...but now I realize...it was the best thing I could have ever done for myself.
It is the path, to making me not only Whole...but a truly better person, lover...and human being....a well rounded individual.

I observed....all who got separated before me (friends, co-worker, and acquaintances), and realized that the tendency is to go 'ape' after a long relationship...and I knew that streak was in me as well...but because I was single for 35 years before i got married...I had a good 'flash back' point to always look on....before I step forward.So I opted for a different route.
Before I got too self possessed (as I notice all did...and got so involved in activities, that they could no longer ...pause...and be receptive to another, without a 'Dr. Phil'-like list of 20 questions answered to a 'T'!)...I sought out a relationship that would not be clinging, and would allow me to re-build my self confidence, and explore avenues I knew I had in me...but felt insufficient....made to feel this way...and so I had to get that monkey off my back.
And I did.
At the time I did not know it...but kept plugging away at it...even with...and in my bouts of doubt...and now I realize I can see the valleys, different from the mountain...and follow the streams.
That relationship was but for a year...but what a year.
It took me off track from all my career goals...but put me totally in touch with myself...and my emotions.
I have always 'be-littled' myself for putting my total entity into the one I am with...because after...I feel so wasted and bare.
But you know what!....THAT is who I am!
I am intensely focused...and I am caring, and always seeking to please.
Plain and straight!...I am a 'Pleaser' by nature...100% so.
Why should I beat myself up for being me?
That was how I was made to feel in the past, when I responded to my friends needs.
But I am fiercely loyal...to a fault....which is perplexing when you are married.
How do you whole-hearted serve two masters?
Won't jump off the bridge to save you...with out a parachute and a life vest (ha-ha-ha)....but I will be there with open arms.
Now my friend, is gone...and I was able to cry my heart out at her funeral...and come to terms with life, love, and death.
And the living goes on.
But I say that to say this.........
It came to me this morning, that another phase of my life has come to an end....much quicker than than usual...so it took me off guard.
Alas!...now it is the time of the Sonny!
Time to totally work on 'Me'.
"A sound, mind is a healthy body!"...and financially...grounded!
That is all I am about now.

Can you dig it!?

Mens sana in corpore sano (a healthy mind in a healthy body) is a famous Latin quotation, often translated as "A sound mind in a sound body." It is derived from Satire X of the Roman poet Juvenal (10.356). In context, the phrase is part of the author’s answer to the question of what people should desire in life:
It is to be prayed that the mind be sound in a sound body.
Ask for a brave soul that lacks the fear of death,
which places the length of life last among nature’s blessings,
which is able to bear whatever kind of sufferings,
does not know anger, lusts for nothing and believes
the hardships and savage labors of Hercules better than
the satisfactions, feasts, and feather bed of an Eastern king.
I will reveal what you are able to give yourself;
For certain, the one footpath of a tranquil life lies through virtue.